Good start

I've ended my summer internship in Siemens by the beginning of Holly Ramdan month. By the end of that internship I've decided to take the whole Ramadan month off and I meant off anything related to work or training courses. Just to sleep, watch TV, chill out with friends, pray & read Quran. And in spare time I wont mind job hunting. This is what was planned. But what had actually happened is Job hunting mainly and

sleeping, watching tv, & chilling out with friends came to the second place.  

During Ramdan I've experienced one of the worst interviews that I'll be discussing later but it ended up with

low self esteem and loss of motivation to my dream career. BTW my dream career is advertising.

After the end of Ramadan month I had a lot of plans, wanted to start to go to the Gym and start to care of my looks after gaining God knows how many pounds.

Wanted to start focusing seriously on my career and apply in that marketing diploma thats gonna help me to learn more about Advertising, and that career that I've spent days and nights dreaming of. Wanted to start chilling out with friends. wanted to start job hunting seriously, wanted to feel the deep need for a job.

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All the plans and aims were welcomed by deep sickness, low blood pressure measured 90/55. followed by inflammation in my stomach that it barely digest juices or accept water. I stayed ill in bed for a week now, Spent the Feast sick in bed & now that I've started to recover I've a sick yellow swallowed face.

Reason for the sickness I had a fight with mom and after it I slept with a severe headache woke up 3 hours later with low blood pressure. and She was keep asking me What is the reason behind your sickness. well mom its YOU.

Had a phone call a couple of days ago for a job interview. & the interview is going to be tomorrow. I dont even remember when I ever applied for that job or what is that agency. All I know is that I'm less motivated the sickness made me less moivated and depressed person. Staying indoors for 8 days should have a negative effect. Thats what I'm sure of. I need to go out and see my friends. I need to be of much energy & more enthusiastic for my career planning I dont know whether that loss of motivation is because of the sickness or because of or just because of me...being me..losing motivation damn quickly. I feel like going to tell them 'I DONT WANT THAT DAMN JOB'

P.S. I dont trust mom